I'd prefer to be a neet again, but I like money, and I need to build a new PC or save for college or some shit, or perhaps just have a job where I can clean alone rather than in a care home. Perhaps once I get a new computer I'll just go on autismbux since I actually do have the autismas. I just want to get paid for doing nothing.

>struggles No struggles I just want to die I'm dysfunctional man let's keep this board comfy please

>>8509 hope you get autismbucks >>8510 whats on your mind, hiki? tell us

>>8511 >whats on your mind, hiki? Escapism. Every day is a struggle against compulsions. Comfy posting on hikarin chan is one of the few solaces I have. I don't really know what to tell you since there are so few things happening. Stay comfy hikarin

>>8507 I have fun being a hikikomori

I'm not doing well. Failed a job interview today and I don't have the money to pay my bills next month, so I'm thinking of ending it soon. I wasn't meant for this kind of world.

I've been failing to make friends in college, and I have been having depression that has affected my classes. All my friends are at home and I have nobody here. I guess I am more successful here, but I don't have anyone to support me, and it truly is an uphill battle. This is truly a fata morgana moment

>>8517 >college COLLEGE?? you ain't NEET

>>8518 my n'wah this is a neet/hikikomori thread never said I was

>>8519 if you're a hikikomori, that mean you're not leaving home, how do you do classes?

>>8520 um uh uh... uuuuuhhh.... ya got me definitions can be flexible too ya know...

>>8520 but uh sure i guess im not

>>8515 Feign mental illness to get on welfare.

>>8524 fortunately I don't have to fake it, I just don't know how to get on welfare.

>>8525 is there even welfare where you live?

i pray for the happiness of all hikikarins in this thread

thanks! i can feel the walls of my room vibrating with the power of your prayer! I FEEL POWAH FILLING ME

don't want to eat don't want to sleep don't want to play anything don't want to watch anything don't want to do anything don't want to be anything don't want to hear anything don't want to see anything don't want to live don't want to die don't want to jerk off. just want to stay in my room and starve to death. complete bodily extinction and evaporation. becoming permanently deaf blind retarded and immobile. oh god my PENIS is so hard it wants to fuck a sexy woman but there are no women around because i am stuck in my room forever. i've always felt that all women are sluts and i've always been right. xenosaga episode 2 is one of the worst pieces of shit i've ever played and i struggled so hard to get through it even though i was playing it non-stop for days. the whole thing just reeks of a cheap filler story that was just added in to justify the episodic structure. the battle system is the worst part, equipment and all weapons are removed and now you only gain skills by spending retarded points that you get through battles. these skills are universal and every character can use them (obviously some are better on certain characters because of their stats but it's still shit) and the battle system is fucking retarded. abcde alphabet zone break retarded nonsense. it gives the illusion of an interesting battle system but all it is is just nonsensical simple trash. fucking story doesn't do anything or answer any questions from the first game. just vomits out more mysteries that you have to wait 60 more hours to get any commentary on. third game is good though but break is annoying as shit. fuck i miss xenogears...

>>8533 i dont eat i dont sleep i do nothing but think of you you keep me under your spell you keep me under your spell

>>8534 the one spell i would like to keep enemies under is break. this whole idea of becoming immobile after getting hit a certain amount of times is so fucking retarded as if this would be something interesting to control or experiment with. yeah you can use heat to focus attacks on one character but it isn't effective for long and oh wait enemies can actually use attacks that target your whole party which means that in a large part of fights it doesn't actually do shit. the balance is also fucking terrible. you can get hit twice or three times and then go into break but the break hp of most enemies is so high that you would need probably 5 or 6 turns to inflict break. the arts which function mainly to inflict break are so fucking stupid. regular attacks and other arts do higher damage and about the same to higher amounts of break damage (by the middle to late part you only get weak shitty break arts and then ziggy's choke which only works on humans) so what the fuck is point? the point is nothing. it's just there for no reason. the ES battles take too long and are all easy but all of the ES would rape every gear since they don't need to use fuel. actually it's so stupid that gears needed fuel in the first place. it has a wireless connection to an infinite power source that can bend reality but still needs a trip to the fuel station after one pathetic fight? i want something else to play...

>>8525 I gave up and signed on with a temp agency. Can't wait to be shoved off into a shitty factory/warehouse job

any long term hikikomori? for me it's coming up on 14 years

>>8571 how many times have you been outside in 14 years???

>>8571 >>8573 He can't have not left the house in 14 years... right?!

>>8573 you can leave the house sometimes as a hikikomori, i dont go to public places like stores. but still go to the forest every couple of weeks

>>8577 >but still go to the forest every couple of weeks based hikarin >>8571 i'm not a neet but the last time i was social was in kindergarten

>>8577 if you go outside many times a week, can you call yourself a hiki??

>>8581 more like a few hours a month but theres also lots of hikis that live alone and have to go out to get their groceries

>>8583 ok, fair

let's make a list of NEET/hikikomori literature. I begin with Oblomov

and welcome to NHK >>8585

>>8585 An anon already said NHK which is the only neet literature I know, but I know osomatsu-san, an underrated neet anime.

i don't think i've ever had a single conversation with a person my age that wasn't completely superficial or done just because i needed to. it's like when i turned 18 a whole world opened up in front of me and i knew no way of dealing with it so i just shut myself in my room and continued to play games forever. i know i should probably be doing something but i don't know how to do anything but infinitely postpone it. i can't do it in real life and if i wanted to do it online i would have to go to tiktok and shitsword servers which i can't do. i feel intense fear at having a conversation unanonymously where i would have an obligation to keep replying and be nice to the other person. that's how far gone i am. i really don't want to talk to anybody but at the same time i really want to and this is what keeps me in my room. i just want to go back to being a kid again.